Slacking

Whoops, I totally suck at keeping up with blogging. I haven't really felt like posting anything in a week or so though, haven't been up to it. I've been super emotional with everything going on right now....I'd be two weeks away from my due date today if I hadn't had the loss in February, and I've had several pregnancy announcements on Facebook recently so it's really stinging.

I had my appointment one week ago today and it went exactly how I expected. We talked about the obvious things going on with me: not ovulating, being overweight, the Provera not doing anything for me other than giving me awful periods.  I was to start taking Provera for 10 days and then go in a CD3 for bloodwork, however, with our vacation this weekend we would have been in Florida for CD3. I decided to wait it out until this week to start taking it.  Well that would have been all find and dandy if I wouldn't have O'd. I'm not 100% positive that I did, I'm more like 80% sure. On CD16 I had a "positive" OPK. I've never had super dark ones before, but this one was the closest thing I've ever seen. I've also been super picky about looking at them, making sure if the control had a streak in one part, the test line did too. I'm thinking this is why I haven't believed in seeing a true positive OPK. My temps follow suit with O being on CD16 as well as my CM.....so I'm thinking I'm in the 2WW. My first one since February. I had a temp dip today, 5dpo, implantation dip? Heh, yeah no. I'm gonna ride it out, and test at 14 dpo. Trying so hard not to get my hopes up.....but it's so difficult not to. 

Phantom symptoms: Sore boobs and nipples, like holy shit nipps simmer down please....and I've been super gassy (sorry DH). Also, my CM has remained super fertile EW-ish. This is exactly what happened in February. I'm reading so much into everything as I'm super hopeful that something is actually happening with me this time around. 

This two week wait is awful. I want to start the Provera already so that I can go in as soon as possible for the blood work, but I also want to take an HPT in a week and have it be a BFP. Goddamit body, why you no cooperate when I really need you to?

Get to know me...or you know, don't. Whatever.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? 
I don't think so, even though most people assume I'm named after Carmen Miranda. 

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? 
Yesterday. Totally stressful day. 

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? 
Sometimes yes, when I take my time to write and if it's with a good pen. 

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Chicken breast from the deli, none of that pre-packaged crap.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Working on it...

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Of course I would, I feel I have a lot to offer others and I'm a great listener. 

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? More than I probably should.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?Been there done that, it was a blast!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? I'm really not a cereal person at all, however, I do enjoy some honey nut cheerios every now and then but only with banana! 

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Nope, and I think I own one pair of shoes with laces.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Stronger than people think I am.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? I freaking love moose tracks, and cake batter ice cream from Cold Stone.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Smile/Eyes

15. RED OR PINK? Red

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? How I get angry so quickly...I let too many things bother me.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My sister in San Diego. :(

18. CLOSE YOUR EYES, WHAT DO YOU SEE?
 Nothing, I just closed my eyes?

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?Black flip flops

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?Blow Pop minis

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The radio and my coworker talk to a crazy person on the phone

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Purple

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?Subawy, Christmas trees, fresh baked bread, my H's cologne 

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? A customer. 

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?Beach house, fo sho.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Hockey, hands down. 

27. HAIR COLOR? Brunette with some natural red highlights

28. EYE COLOR? Blue

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope

30. FAVORITE FOOD? All Asian food. All of it.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Scary movies, screw happy endings...those only happen in shady massage parlors. 

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Runner Runner

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Navy blue

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? Neither, fall please.

35. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs, they're the best

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? cheesecake, banana cream pie, or things with lemon

37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?strength training

38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?Computer. I watch TV online.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? The last hunger games book

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Info about where I work

42. FAVORITE SOUND? Baby coos/giggles

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Stones

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?Wales, UK or Mazanillo, MX

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? A girl never kisses and tells ;)

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Indiana

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?Same place

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?Pale yellow

49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?White

50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?Gave me something to do

Bathroom Selfie for your viewing pleasure.

Testing....testing...

Never thought I'd be here...writing in a blog on the interwebz. Thanks to a suggestion from a couple of new found friends, I've hopped on the blog train. So here goes nothing! I'll try to keep this as updated as possible. I think knowing that there are people actually reading this will help keep me accountable. I hope this turns out to be a great outlet for me to have my melt downs, proud moments, silly stories, and angry rants. Something tells me it will be.

.....just because it was too funny not to post.